I'm clinging on to poor connections because I've got nothing else.

I’ve been alone for some time. I thought I got used to it but.. I didn’t.

Met an individual like a needle in a haystack. Someone whose tracing the same steps I once took. We learned that we have a lot of similarities so I was growing fond of this friendship.. so much that I looked past the one-sidedness of it all. While she certainly was curious about the things she was interested about me..She was never really curious about me.

I felt the lopsidedness of all the conversations and everything, yet I still instigated conversations with her. And when the conversation dried up along with her interest, it was me and my mental health going crazy. Anxiety, thoughts of worthlessness, abandonment. When in reality they never really cared that much for me in the first place and it was entirely foolish of me to invest so much into a person that wouldn’t reciprocate.

Sigh…

I am focusing my attention into more productive areas..